The Flowers Know the Sun: Watercolor Poem

how can a solid stone become
as weightless as a cloud?
how do the flowers know the sun
when growing in the ground?

This watercolor and the poem on the back, fell out of me within the first days of my first, and only, pregnancy. What had once filled me with fear, was transformed into only wonder, joy, and curiosity. How I thought I would feel about pregnancy was not at all how I actually felt– and the realization of this discrepancy, this unknowable feeling, is captured here in this art.

Unfortunately, my pregnancy was ectopic, life-threatening, and led to internal bleeding, an emergency surgery and six week miscarriage. I am so grateful for the medical care that saved my life.

In the past, I would have said I am a self-aware person. I thought I knew myself, had that deep self-knowledge. But the experience of pregnancy has transformed that idea– I had no idea.

This watercolor is available as a giclée print in my shop, with the poem handwritten on the back.